Monday, January 28, 2013


Gratitude...a well used word these days...bordering on hackneyed...over use. When a word is used far  too often it takes on a hint of loses it's "punch". That being said, this morning finds me immersed in gratitude. 

Did you watch Downton Abbey last night?

Poor, dear Sybil died. She died as a result of the seizures brought on by eclampsia...extreme hypertension. I have to tell you my heart rate was way up as I watched this...because this was me many years ago right after Annie was born. 

I remember being put into a dark room...alone...and being shot full of phenobarbital...the age old anti-convulsive medication. No Annie. It was very, very scary. My poor mother...and husband waiting...Annie sleeping down the hall.

As sad as it was to watch last night's episode of spooked me in a whole other way. This Monday morning finds me very grateful...grateful for the grey hair on my head...the crinkly lines around my eyes...the extra lb's around my waist; all signs that twenty six years have passed since those scary days in that dark hospital room. 

Gratitude...I like that word...I like being here to feel it even more.

Enjoy the day,


  1. I think the scary dark painful times in our life open a whole new light or life on the word Grateful. In my opinion God has blessed us with so much their is always always something to be grateful/thankful for.
    Especially your precious life.So glad you are here to feel it too.
    Warm woolie blessings

  2. Poor sweet Sybil, I was shocked watching it. It must have been a terrible experience for you to go through years ago.

  3. Isn't it amazing how the simpliest of things (a show) can bring us back to appreciating life...things we often take for granted are seen anew. May be always be joyful and thankful for the gifts of our life and family.
    Have a lovely day.

  4. Oh Robyn! How scary! Thank God you came through it ok. I was thinking as I watched of the many women who have been affected by eclampsia and how the episode might affect them. I'm grateful that you and Annie both are here and happy and well!

  5. Oh my gosh, thank God you & your daughter are okay! My daughter and I both sobbed through that episode and my daughter still cries when Sybil dying is mentioned. I just read "The Fault in our Stars" by John Green, it deals with cancer affecting teenagers, and yeah--so happy to be healthy and here. Amen.

  6. I haven't seen the episode terrible. I share your sadness...I suffered a form of preclampsia with my first pregnancy (my angel wasn't so lucky). However, as time has past, I have found joy in being able to share in daughter's short life. Many blessings.

  7. I didn't watched Downton Abby but just reading about your experience after your pregnancy gave me a visual image of your suffering at the time.
    Gratitude is being thankful but we sometime need a contrast to get a good picture of why we are grateful. You got that contrast like I did with my stage three breast cancer in 2002. Gratitude was flowing and it made me enjoy life to the full then.


  8. Love Downton Abby...Last night brought back how many women were lost by ignorance over the centuries. I must admit while I did shed a tear, at almost the same time poor Sybil was in distress; the Chicago Blackhawks scored the wining goal in over time. Multy tasking does have it's rewards.

  9. I had the same experience with the birth of my first son. I gained thirty pounds of fluid the night before his delivery. After Kristopher's birth, my room was blackened no lights , no visitors, my parents could only peek into my room, it was the one and only time I have seen my father cry. I had a nurse remain with me for three days...I did recover and was ever so grateful. My health returned and after ten days I went home with a healthy baby boy. I am blessed.

  10. Wow glad you came through this. I never knew what tis was until I read about it today. Take care, janice

  11. I am so glad you are here! Praise God!
    If you never walk in another's shoes you don't know what they have been through!

  12. Hi Robyn,
    But for the wonderful world of blogging we would not have known this about those awful days for you - except for your family of course...I feel blessed that you shared this with us but saddned that hospital techniques back then were so far from what they are today. Sorry you had to go through all of that.
    Now Downtown Abbey...I really must be horribly out of the loop. I hear many talk about this show but have not known a thing about it. This is something I'm going to look into for sure.
    Blessings to you,

  13. How frightening that must have been for you! I know your family must feel gratitude as well after that!